Miami Valley Hospital and Child Birth Classes

Well, we have successfully finished our Child Birth Classes. Wasn't as bad as I thought. There really wasn't as much 'participation' as I thought there would be. We did practice the breathing part - and that was a bit weird (Tim couldn't coach without laughing - which made me start laughing). I seriously don't think I will be 'panting' during the labor. Whenever I have pain, or anything where I start stressing - I take deep calming breaths. 'Panting' makes me have panic attacks - so that will probably be out. We didn't practice the different 'positions' just pretty much talked about them, which was fine I guess. I think my body will tell me the best way to be - as it usually does for any other pains I tend to have. Not to mention - I am all about an epidural when the pain gets too much.

However, I do have to take a moment and give Hubby the gold star for the weekend. He really did pay attention, and learn a lot. Now - whether he remembers it when the time comes, that is a different story. On Sunday (we took the weekend class) they had a review first thing - and even though he didn't answer in front of the class - he would answer to me, and he was spot on for most of it. Then, in the afternoon, we had a 'Labor Rehearsal' where there were 12 different cards with different parts of labor and delivery on them, and it asked you questions like....where would you be right now, what should you do, what is happening, etc. Again, Tim was pretty much on target for it. It made me feel better knowing that he really did pay attention during the class. Lord knows I probably won't remember most of it when the contractions start!

Not only did we have the class, but we learned a lot about the hospital, their processes, and the different rooms. We took a tour to see the different rooms, and talk about what goes on, what you can do, etc. I think we definitely made a good choice to stick with Miami Valley. I probably wouldn't have picked somewhere else - since my Dr. only delivers at MVH, but I feel that this is the best in the area - with the NICU, PICU, and nursing staff - overall I was impressed.

Something I am extremely happy about is the way they handle delivery, and the important first few hours after. Miami Vally has done some studies - along with other hospitals- and found that treating the new mothers, babies, and dads as a whole, and not just patients makes things work much better. Also, they try to do everything there in the delivery room and not separate mom and baby more than needed. The told us that the first 2 hours after delivery is very important for regulating babies body temperature, breastfeeding, starting the 'healing process' with mom, and just general bonding time for the new family. They said that a majority of that first two hours are done 'skin to skin' which means the baby is pretty much in a diaper and hat - on mom's chest, and they are both covered in blankets. The nurse said that Mom's body adjusts to whatever temperature the baby needs to regulate its temperature. Plus, the baby will smell the milk, and help latch on better when you start to breastfeed.

The only downside I see in the whole delivery process at MVH is for our family. With the important time right after delivery, this means it will be about 2 hours after delivery before our family will be able to see us. The nurse did kind of explain it in a good way. The mom and dad just got running a marathon (labor) and they aren't able to enjoy there prize (baby) with it being passed around the room. If the family were to come into the room right after delivery - once they take their pictures, take turns holding, and fawn over the baby - he will be tired, fussy, and it would be harder to feed. Breastfeeding is very important to us, so we want to do everything we can to try to make the whole thing easier. I hope our family will understand, and give us that needed time together, and then they can visit once we are settled in the 'after' room. Not to mention that I will pretty much be naked anyway - so that would not be a good time to have extended family in the room.

We decided that my mom, and Tim's mom are going to be in the delivery room for the birth. My mom - because she is my mom, and Tim's mom because she has been there for him through the whole thing. They have always had a close relationship, and she was the only one he could really talk to when we were doing all the fertility treatments. I could tell that Tim wanted his mom there - but didn't want me to be uncomfortable so I thought it would be good to have her there as support for Tim.. Not to mention - both of them are nurses, so they know medical stuff, and would 'blend into the background' if things get a bit out of hand, or to just let Tim and I do what we need to do to get through everything. My cousin will be there also - she is like a little sister to me and Tim - and she is on camera detail. However, once the baby is born, my mom and Tim's mom will #1 want to take a break and #2 want to celebrate with the rest of the family in the waiting room or on the phones. Tim's mom always has her camera, so she will be able to share some pictures with the waiting room until we are settled and ready to have guests come visit.

So, that was a very full weekend, and Monday came WAY too soon. Now we are working on Christmas lists, Thanksgiving, and our Caring for your New Born class in December. It is now 9:45 pm, and I am pooped. Gotta get up early in the morning and get Tim off to his 5K run, and go get my Thanksgiving Day ads to prepare for our shopping trip on Friday.

29 weeks, Baby Shower #1 and some fears!!

Busy...busy...busy...Girl. Haven't been updating like I should - by the time I get home and get my feet up, I am nearly falling asleep. So I will try to recap what has been going on the last few weeks.

Dr Appointments @ 29 weeks: Well, had a Doctor appointment on October 22nd. I was 28 weeks 6 days. The doctor walks in and says.....hmmmm 7 lbs huh. I had gained 7 lbs in 4 weeks. I was a bit bummed. He didn't want me to gain more than 15 for the entire pregnancy - and I am up to 13 according to his measurements. One thing I have noticed the last 2 weeks (which I told him) I am bouncing between weights. I am +5 lbs one day, and -5 lbs the next. It is crazy!! Anyway, I have felt VERY hungry recently, so I think I am going to try and start packing some snacks to eat during the day and hopefully keep from pigging out at supper. Also, when he was measuring me, I am suppose to be between 28 and 29 cm - and I was 32 cm !!! Which means that I may be having a big baby - not a surprise, but they are going to watch me. If I continue to measure big, they will do an ultrasound to check the size and make sure everything is OK. I am really hoping to have 'normal' size baby, but doubt I will get it. With the big babies in my family - hubby's size - and other things against us, sounds like we will be having a big - or long- baby. here is a picture of me at 29 weeks, and after my shower....so I was pooped!

Cramer/Brown Shower 10-24-2009: My side of the family had our baby shower yesterday. It was very cute. They took the farm theme for the nursery and ran with it. I loved it! There was a cute hand made cake, clothesline, and we even drank out of Mason Jars!! I am not a very good gift receiver, or at being the center of attention. This is very awkward when the shower is being thrown for you!! I am use to being the one in the back making sure everyone else is taken care of, pouring drinks, etc - so it was a bit weird for me. It was nice to see everyone. Some of the guests I hadn't seen in a while, so it was nice. I got a lot of good gifts, and a few of the BIG ones I needed. We got our travel system, so we will be able to bring the baby home...which is good, and we got our bedding! So we have the crib, and bedding, just waiting on the mattress to complete that part.

This brings us to my recent fears. Other than my baby being really big - requiring me to go early - but the nursery part is killing me. I'm afraid that we won't get the things we need before the baby is here. I do have 2 more showers, and Christmas, but I am afraid to wait on the big things that have to be ordered - especially since I am due 2 weeks after Christmas. Typically shipping takes 2 weeks, and then we have to put it together. I still don't have a dresser - so I can't put clothes away. I don't have a changing table yet, so I can't even use that for clothes either. For those of you that don't know, I am a planner, and to have things sitting in bags and totes on the floor is killing me. Tim keeps telling me that it will be OK, and that we will purchase the few big things we need after our showers to relieve my fears, and then others can get me the little stuff. I am just freaking right now - as usual - and will get over it. I am sure things will take care of themselves - and there is really no reason for my worry, but I can't help it.

Anyway, I gotta go to the Bengal Barn and watch the game. Yes I am a Bengal Fan, and this season has not been good for my blood pressure - but that is for another blog!!

Later!

♥ Jessica & Brady ♥

Baby loves and worries....

Well, recently had my Dr. Appt - I am measuring 28 CM at 25 weeks. Dr was very happy with everything, and the heartbeat was strong. Well, the last few days, Brady (aka little bean) hasn't been kicking like he was. So this, of course, had me worried. I know babies have their slow days, but I just can't help but to worry. -

~~Back Story: My Aunt lost her son at 38 weeks. She went in to see if she could be induced (her 4th baby) and was having less than normal movements. the went to check the heartbeat, and it was gone. I went to the hospital with my mom, aunts, uncles, and grandparents to be with her. That was one of the worst days of my life. Holding the beautiful little baby that will never be with us again. My Aunt was one of those mothers that followed everything to the letter. No caffeine (even chocolate) little sugar, - all the stuff that they say you should, and shouldn't do - she was on top of it, and still lost her little one. We had a funeral and a burial for the little angel, and still think of him as part of the family. Our family angel that looks over us every day.

So, for that reason, I get a little worried when I don't have any movement. I went from having the jumpy belly - where you could actually see my belly moving, to next to nothing, but maybe a kick every5 hours. I am sure the kicks will get more and more the farther along I get, but that will be fine. Brady has kept me up at night with the kicks, but it is alright. Every kick reminds me to be thankful.

Anyway, Brady has picked up in the movement area, so hopefully he will keep it up. I am trying not to worry, but it is hard sometimes.

Well, the registries are done- at least as done as I am going to get them. I am sure I didn't register for everything I needed, but with all the experienced mommies out there, I am sure they will have me covered. Two of the people I work with have brought me their baby boy clothes - total of 5 trash bags full. Once of the babies was born in April, and the other was born in October. The April baby was bigger, while the October was small, so I have a nice mixture of clothes to separate. I need to wash and separate all the clothes, but have no dresser to put them away, so I am waiting on that. Killing me, but I am trying.

In closing - since I haven't posted a pic in a while, I thought I should. This was at 25 weeks, and after a big dinner at the Lodge. I stuffed myself, and it was good. So Brady was at his limits, and was not a happy camper to share the room in there with my full belly.

Well, I'm pooped, and going to go to bed soon. Tim has a Flag Football Game in the morning, and a house warming party later that day. So we will be busy.

G'Night

♥ J & Brady ♥

Updates...

Sorry I haven't been on recently. We are getting into the busy time of the season with my family, plus I have been stressing about this whole Baby Registry thing. Not to mention, Tim is back in school, playing Flag Football with the church, and the Masonic Lodge has started up, so we got that too.

Anyway, the whole baby registry thing is making me pull my hair out. I decided to register at Babies R' Us, Target, and Walmart. That way, I can hit all the different price ranges, areas, etc. Well, furniture was my biggest worry. I wanted something that was sturdy, good quality, but not expensive. Asking a bunch I know. Well, Babies R Us had good quality, but I thought it was over priced. So I went to Target. The only thing is, Target only has 2 cribs on the floor - which have been cut in half so they are no wider than a clothes basket - and they are up on a shelf. So the only resolution is online. I got into reading the Reviews - which has mixed info. Some people hate it, say the furniture is crap, and falls apart. Others say that they have used it for all 3 kids. well, 2 weeks later - I finally pick a color and group....lo and behold - it is unavailable the next day...GAH!! So I am still trying to fix that issue. Plus, Target doesn't have a lot of baby stuff in store - it is all online. So a majority of the stuff would have to be bought online. Which is OK for most - but I have family who do not even have computers, let alone purchase online. So I figured the big stuff, someone would get online, and the rest could be worked with in person. So I start a baby registry at Walmart by the Dayton Mall since we left Babies R US at that time. They have the scanner, and a computer for the registry. Well, I decide to go back to the Walmart in Xenia, and I am told that they don't do the registry, you have to do it online. WHAT!!! you are Walmart for goodness sake. First I can't get Maternity stuff there, no body pillows, now no baby registry at certain stores. Again - some of my family do not own computers....HELLO!!!

So, I am afraid that Babies R Us may win out. Hopefully those in our family who cannot drive to the Dayton Mall, and do not have computers, will decide what to purchase, and if I get duplicates - so be it. I will deal with the returns later. I was going to go to Babies R Us today after work, but due to major traffic back ups, I decided to go home. Looks like I will be getting up Saturday Morning and heading to Babies R Us while Tim is running a 10K in Fairborn, then meeting him @ the football game. I am ready for this part to be done! It wasn't this hard when I registered for the wedding....sheesh!

I haven't posted any belly pics yet - every time I think about it, I have already gotten into comfy clothes, so the pics wouldn't be very good. By the way, Tim finally felt the baby kick. We were laying in bed, and I laid in my back to stretch, and Brady was doing the conga in there. So I grabbed Tim's hand and put it on my belly. What does he say....'Is that the baby?'..ahhhh...yes it is the baby. what else would it be? Sheesh! It did kinda make him take notice a bit more. Not to say he hasn't been touching the belly and stuff, but he tends to do it more now, and doing a little belly shake to see if he will kick again. It is cute, and I am loving it.

Anyway, just thought I would update everyone. We are doing good, growing, and doing great. I am sure I will be on here more once the registry thing is over.

Thanks
♥ J & Brady ♥

Been Away, Big News, and Help Request.

Sorry I have been gone for so long. We have been working around the house to get ready for carpet. We finally got it installed last week, so now I have been working on getting things back together. The carpet looks great. My FIL and Hubby actually decided to paint the ENTIRE first floor, not just the bedrooms, and it looks GREAT!! I am so thankful for my FIL's help.

Now on to the BIG NEWS....For those of you that do not know.....we are having a BOY!!! During the ultrasound, the baby was pointing at it saying...check this out Mommy, this is what you were looking for. And everyone kept asking me if I was worried that the baby would be modest.....Huh - not Tim's Kid. I will be lucky to keep clothes on this baby after he is born. So, we are EXCITED!!! Movements are getting stronger, just wish they would be going on when Tim is home. Seems that the baby doesn't move much when he is home. BTW...First name will be BRADY. Still up in the air with a middle name. **BTW...number at the top is not my social - but thanks for checking**

In regards for my request for help - I am trying to complete the Registry. All you Mommies out there - especially recent ones- can you send me a list of things you couldn't live without, along with things you didn't think to register for - but really needed it. We are going to register at Target, Babies R US, and Walmart. Any ideas would be helpful as I am hoping to get this done within the next 2-3 weeks. My email address is jbrobinson996@verizon.net if your list is pretty detailed, or lengthy. I appricate any tips you can provide to me.

Belly Pic- 20 Weeks 5 Days - taken by my MIL Lil @ her house.

♥ Jessica and Brady ♥

Gone...gone...gone

Well, it has been a busy week. Our garden is pretty much done. We had a total of 93 pints, and 43 Quarts - which was great. We actually gave away about 25-30 gallons of unbroken beans that we didn't have time to can. I still have 2 tomato plants, but the tomatoes are not ripening like they should, so that is still to go.

Last Sunday Grandma, Mom, and Dad came over and cut corn and start ripping up some of the old carpet. Thankfully Grandma has been cutting corn for about 70 some years, so she is a pro. Towards the end I was cutting with her - but didn't do as good as she did. Guess I got 50 more years of practice to go! Here is a picture of me and Grandma Brown cutting some corn. Not the greatest picture of me, but whatever!

After cutting the corn, Dad started to pull up the carpet in the Dining Room. Mom and Grandma were cleaning up, so I went inside sweep the floor as Dad removed the carpet. Good thing too, cause the floor was NASTY!! there was so much dirt and sand under that carpet - not to mention the stain spots on the back of the carpet. So happy that all of it is going out of the house by the end of the month.

With all the dirt, dust, and crap - I had to keep covered....Don't I look cute....and yes I smiled at the camera...DORK!

Say good bye to the crappy looking floor in the kitchen too!!

Just gotta get the baseboard put back up, and the corner-round : which is the wood that you put around cabinets and stuff to hid the 1/4 inch of space you must leave for expansion/contraction etc. Dad is going to be here tomorrow to help do that and get it done. But this is what it looks like so far.

We also got the nursery carpet and closet doors out, along with the spare room. Those rooms will be painted soon by my FIL and Hubby. Then we will move out the rest of the stuff in our bedroom so that room can be repainted also.

I can't wait for my house to be put back together....but all of this is worth it. Wanna bring Lil Bean home to a clean and safe place in January.

P.S. - I added a poll....vote on if you think Lil Bean is a Boy or Girl!

Night

♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

Houston...We have movement!!!

Holy Moley!! Someone is blowing bubbles in my belly.

Well, on Satuday, my cousin Sequoya and her boyfriend came over for her birthday, and ate my homemade pizza (birthday girl's wish). After I got done eating, I was sitting around waiting for the others to finish, and all of a sudden - there were bubbles in my belly. I must have had a weird look on my face cause Tim looked at me and asked if I was ok. I said 'Either I am going to be sick, or I just felt the baby move'. Well, I didn't get sick, and the bubble feeling was right below the belly button - right where the doctor said. It was crazy!!

It happened again on Sunday. I was getting ready for church while Tim was in the shower. He got out, I turned around to ask him a question, and it happend again. As before, it caught me off guard but I was glad I felt it. Made me smile! Tim probebly thinks I am going crazy, but its ok. I just can't wait till the baby is big enough for Tim to feel it.

I also relized that I have yet to take a belly picture because to me - all I see is residual flab from the 50 lb weight gain thanks to PCOS. Eventhough I am down 25 lbs, I still feel like I am flabby uptop, and not really 'showing'. Well I talked to some other Mom's online, and they said they felt th same way, but it was just everything moving up, making you pooch out more. Also, I think that because of dealing with the infertility, and the increased chance of miscarriage - I was afraid to take pictures, start a journal, or any of that stuff because I didn't know how I would react to it in the event I lost the baby. I know that is morbid - but it is a fact that you must face - especially for pregnancy after infertility.

So, since I am now 17 weeks - I thought I had better take a picture. I refuse to post bare-belly pics for personal reasons: #1 I think bare pregnant bellies look weird and freak me out just a bit and #2 a PCOS side effect is increased hair growth - so my belly is a bit fuzzy. Sorry for the TMI, but it is a fact. Anyway, Tim took the picture - which he isn't the greatest with the camara - but hopefully he will get better...LOL.

I have decided that I will definitly be switching to Maternity Jeans next weekend. While we were sitting in church, I realized just how big my belly was getting, and how regular jeans are not as flexable as my work pants are.

Well, Tim is home, and out of the shower - so it is time to go to bed.

G'night
♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

Blog Changes

FYI...I have changed they way my comments are posted on the blog. I have missed comments here and there - so I have turned on the setting that does not post the comment until I have approved it. Sorry if this is a bit weird, but I want to make sure I catch everyone's comments.

Thanks
♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

Dr Appointment Updates

Well, had my Dr. Appointment today. And I just have one question....why is it that during the day I pee a zillion times, pretty much every 2 hours, but when I have to give a 'sample' I dry up completely. SHEESH! Anyway, got into the room, and the Dr. came in. He looked at my chart and said that I had passed the 3 hr glucose test. YEA!! No meds or anything crazy like that needed.

He said he was very glad about my weight. With as much as I gained with PCOS, he is only estimating 10-15 lb gain. He said it may even be the end of my 2nd trimester before I start moving up the scale. He doesn't want me to gain a lot, but the baby will help my body determine how much I should gain. It was quite funny when I had asked him about not gaining anything, but 'parts' of me are getting smaller. He said that babies are the worlds best parasites - cause they feed on the stored fats in your body. Since I have the extra fat stored from PCOS, I got plenty for the baby to feed on - EAT UP!! After the question and answer, he had me lay back and he was poking my belly a bit, then said that my uterus size is right on track,

After the poking, I thought he was done. But then he must have heard my silent prayer - cause out came the doppler. ::Sigh:: He got the heart beat really quick. Beating strong- my little washing machine- and he said the beats were strong and even. Very pleased with everything.

So, I cleaned up, and we set the date for the Growth and Anatomy scan (boy?/girl?) and my next Dr. Appointment for the same date - August 27th. 4 more weeks, and I will {{Hopefully}} find out what we are having - as long as the baby works with us. I will be getting the Scan on DVD, so I will be able to post the video once we get home. VERY EXCITING!!! We can't wait. Tim is taking the day off and going to go with me. The appointment is early morning, so we are going to go to the 2 appointments, and then we both have chiropractor appointments that afternoon. Busy Day!

Anyway, thank you to everyone for their prayers regarding the Glucose Test. I was very nervous about it, but turns out everything is fine. Just hope that the same will be said when I take the tests over again in 8-10 weeks (like a normal person).

♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

First Baby-ish Gift from my MIL

**Sorry, was going to do this last night, but went to dinner at my parents house with my SIL and Nephew.**

My MIL, Pam (Hubby's Mom) said that she wanted to drop off the gifts she got us when she was on vacation back in June. She said that she kept forgetting to get them to us. Hubby and I were at dinner, and then going to the grocery, so MIL dropped it off at the house. When we got home, we had a little bundle of gifts waiting for us.

Turns out, right next to the resort my MIL was staying at was a 'build a bear' type place, and she had to go and check it out.The bear she made was very cute. It has jeans, tennis shoes, and has a T-shirt that says 'Born to Love Grandma'. MIL said that there is a purple star in with the stuffing that is her 'wish' for the baby. Purple is her favorite color, so that is why she chose it.

I love it. She named it Little Bean, and it even has a birth certificate that has the name on it.

She made the bear a little bracelet that says Little Bean on it.
In the 'cradle' that comes with it - she had added 2 CDs of baby lulibies, a 'Camo' onesie, a Bengal Bib, and a yellow blanket with Winnie the Pooh on it. There was also a Gray long sleeve shirt that said 'Oh Baby' on it for me.

Very cute indeed. I can already tell that this baby is going to be SPOILED!!! As I was looking at everything, I was very squeeful.

I can just imagine how I will be at the babyshower - it is going to be sickening. LOL.

♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

Garden Updates!!

Well, what can I say...we have been pretty blessed this year with the garden. We just did our 3rd pick of Green Beans - and god somewhere around 33 gallons of un-snapped beans between everyone. We got beans coming from all sides. Never have we had such a harvest....and they are still blooming. I am running out of jars at this point. We usually can the pints, cause that is all Tim and I need, but we canned some quarts too for company, reunions, etc. However, I am now out of pint jars - mom is out too, and we are going to be canning the rest in quarts unless I can find a place to sell them off. I am very thankful for the amount that has came from the garden...and especially thankful for my mom and Grandma Brown - who have been doing all the canning. Per Grandma B - I am not allowed to do any of the canning as my lids will not seal (wives tale). However, when she was pregnant - none of hers sealed. Better be safe not sorry. Give Grandma something to do during the day, and my mom takes over if there is any left. Mom mainly does the picking, and all 3 of us snap. I can pretty much only snap and clean - that's it.

A few days back, we had a good rain (which we needed) however, the wind blew so hard that it knocked my corn to the ground. I only had about 15-20 stalks still standing. I was crushed (no pun intended) cause one of my fav foods is Sweetcorn on the Cob - I can just eat that as a meal by itself. It looked like someone drove their car over my corn - laying pretty much flat. Well, I prayed - and the sun came out. Most of th stalks are back upright- there is a section in the middle that is still laying down a bit, but it looks like the ears are filling out, so I am starting to feel good about it. We will see how they look in a few weeks when they are ready. I can't wait!!

Well, it is close to bed time, and I am pooped. I will post another blog tomorrow - my MIL brought us the gifts she has been saving for us - congrats on the baby gifts - so I had a big SQUEEFUL Mommy Moment! Can't wait to share pictures about it.

G'night

♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

Room Updates, Bad Dreams and my Glucose Fail

Well, on the house front - the rooms are empty!! WHOOT!!! But everything is now in the basement, including the spare room bed. So the house looks a bit empty - like we were getting ready to move. We are hoping Dad will come out within the next few weeks to put the wood in the Dining and Kitchen rooms, and start tearing out the carpet in the bedrooms. While we were at Lowes getting the boards that will go where the carpet was in the dining room to level the floor with the existing kitchen floor. Gotta have a pretty level area to but the wood down. While we were at Lowes, we decided to re-paint the bedrooms while they are empty. However, just being in Lowes paint center, flooring center, anywhere in Lowes really, makes me start to feel sick. Luckily Hubby called his Dad, and asked if he would come in an paint. YEA!! He said he would paint one room at a time - which is good so I don't get too much in fumes. We will have the ceiling fans on in the rooms, and just have him open the windows and close the door when he leaves - that way we can keep the fumes going out. May even put fan in the window, but we will see. I am just thankful that he agreed to do it. It will keep me out of the room and away from the fumes.

I have also been having some bad dreams recently. Mostly they are weird, and don't really make much sense. I have had a few where my closest friend, Brooke, went with me to a Dr. appointment, but then some guys attempted to kidnap her from my car when we were driving home. I think it was the fact that I haven't gotten to talk to her, or hang out with her for a while that prompted the dreams. Since we move out of town, it has gotten harder and harder to get together. Especially since it is about 40 minutes between our houses. Not to mention, with my 'no-baby-blues' I spent a lot of time to myself, and hiding in the house.

Well, today was a doosie. To start with, the only dreams I have ever had about the baby was what we were having, and that there would be 2 (boy and a girl by the way). But today was BAD. I had a dream that I lost the baby. I was at my parents house, and was getting into the shower - and noticed some spotting. So I run into the kitchen (still buck naked) and start freaking out asking Mom (nurse) what to do. She said that they had to get the baby out - So I start freaking out again saying that nothing is wrong with the baby, and I just need to go to the doctor. So I decide to go ahead and take a shower, but as I was stepping in, I sneezed. Now, without going into too much detail, think of how it looks if you turn a ketchup bottle upside down, and squeeze hard and fast. Yea, pretty gross, and really freaked me out. This is when I woke up. My heart was racing, and I was breathing fast - starts of a full blown panic attack. I haven't had one in a few years, but was able to calm down before things got out of hand. Unfortunately Tim was already out of bed, and it was about 20 minutes before my alarm went off, so he wasn't there in the bed with me. but after a few calm breaths, I was OK. It still bothered me a little, but I am trying to put it behind me. I will definitely be asking the Dr. to locate the heartbeat if he doesn't do it on his own, just to put my mind at ease.

On top of that, this morning I got a call from the Dr's office. So last week, at my nurse meeting, I agreed to do the 1 hour glucose test. Because of my PCOS, I have an increased chance of Gestational Diabetes. So to be safe, they tested me early, to try and head off any issues. Well, the results came back, and I failed. So tomorrow I am taking the dreaded 3 hour test. I have to fast from 7:30 pm until test time at 7:30 am. Now, for those of you that have been following along, I am notorious for getting a bit fuzzy when I get my blood drawn. Well, 12 hrs of fasting, 1 bottle of sugar drink, and a blood draw every hour for 3 hours, it is going to be a trial tomorrow. Please pray for me that I don't A) throw up - cause I will have to come back and do it again another day and B) not pass out from lack of food, and 3 individual blood draws. Hopefully they will have my test results by Thursday afternoon when I go to see the Dr. I am a bit anxious, so I can't wait until the results come in. If the levels are still too high, they may put me back on the Met, and I would have to test my own blood sugar. But I am just trying to get tomorrow done, then worry about the results.

Anyway, gotta go to bed now cause I gotta get up earlier than normal to make it to the lab early enough.

G'night
♥ Jessica & Lil Bean ♥

Sorry no posts recently.

Sorry that I haven't posted in a while. We are preparing for my vacation the end of August. I am off for 7 days - where we are getting carpet installed THROUGHOUT the house....yes, the WHOLE UP STAIRS. So, needless to say I have been trying to get the nursery cleaned out (was storing stuff from the basement overhaul that we never moved back down stairs...aka...junk) and get the non-essential stuff packed up so we can rip carpet out in a few weekends from now. We are also getting the laminate flooring in the Kitchen/Dining room area, so we went and picked that out - and it is sitting in the Spare Room. Tim ripped out the remaining baseboard heaters, and we are going to cut out the thermostats that went with them the same day we rip the carpet up. We will also patch the holes from wire, replace the missing baseboard, and touch up paint while the carpet is up. Well, I won't be doing any of that stuff, except running the sweeper when the carpet and tack strips are removed. No painting for me! We are still trying to decide if we are just going to paint the nursery a cream color - or wait and do a color once we find out what we are having. Oh well, gotta get the rooms cleaned out first. Got quite a few bags to take to good will. Mostly clothes that I will 'Never' be back in - size 2-4 from the modeling days, along with some of the 6-8 that didn't wear when I could fit into them. Some of my 10s I am keeping - just in case I can get back in them after the pregnancy - we will see how PCOS acts after the baby is here. Tim even got rid of some of his T-shirts that he doesn't wear anymore, or are too small. I swear that man has more clothes than I do - most of them were from high school!

Not only are we working inside, but God has been working on the outside. Our garden is GROWING. We have already canned 69 pint jars of green beans, and our sweetcorn will be ready in a few weeks. We have ears starting!! I am so excited....I have been dying for silver queen corn!! Well, I can't really say 'WE' have been canning - since I am not allowed to touch anything when we start to can. I can clean and break the beans, but when it comes to the canning, I am not allowed to touch anything - Grandma's rules. When she was pregnant with my uncle, none of her lids sealed. So, better be safe than sorry - Mom and Grandma have been doing my canning for me. Mom and I are splitting everything from the garden anyway, I just feel like they have been doing all the work. However, Mom said that I have been providing the food and cookies (warm after dinner dessert) so we can call it even.

On the baby front - nothing new. The queasy feeling is getting less - however my appetite is still not back. Still have a few things I can't even think about eating. I haven't gained any weight, however I only have 2 notches on my belt left. Some of you have been asking for Baby Bump Pictures - I'm sorry. I don't want to post belly pictures till it looks like I am pregnant -not just 'fluffy' around the midsection. The bump is still below my belly button, so no pictures until it rises. I'm still tired though. I work for a few hours on stuff, and then have to go sit/lay down cause I am dead on my feet. Makes getting ready for the vacation very hard. I finally get to have my appointment with the nurse this week on Wednesday (even though I will be 15 1/2 weeks preg) for her to go over all the specifics, do's and don'ts, start a birth plan, etc. Should be interesting. I will have a few more questions to ask her this time (TMI-FYI: some help in the #2 department, how to prevent/spot a hemroid before it gets bad, etc). If anyone has some good questions that you think I should ask - post them below!

Well, I gotta get ready for bed - starting another work week tomorrow ::GROAN:: The weekends are just not long enough, and I can't seem to sleep good when I don't have an alarm to wake up to.

G'night
♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

Pregnancy Survey

I was reading another pregnant blogger MSC from GP and she did a pregnancy survey, so I thought I would do it also.


How far along? 13 1/2 weeks **Sorry had to edit - forgot what week I was on!**
Total weight gain/loss: -5 lbs.
Maternity clothes? They're not a necessity at this point, but I have gotten my friend - Jessica also - all of her Maternity clothes since she is not planning on more babies. I am willing to take anyone elses if they wanna get rid of!!
Stretch marks? One - but don't know if it was from the PCOS 50 lb weight gain. before pregnancy
Sleep: ok, but keep having weird dreams.
Best moment this week: Not been a great week so far - really emotional.
Movement: none really - TMYFYI...would like a little movement in the #2 area!!
Food cravings: french fries - and any food I don't have to cook.
Food aversions (added this!): changes from day to day
Gender: TBD.
Labor Signs: Thank God No!!
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: Not being able to eat anything I want due to sickness.
What I am looking forward to: everything!!
Weekly Wisdom: what?
Milestones: loosened my belt another notch! Thank goodness I lost 20 lbs before pg - got plenty of room!!

Just an update

I had my last RE appointment with Dr. Bidwell. It was kinda sad in a way - I'm not going to get my bi-weekly peeks at the baby, but on the other hand, Lil Bean is strong enough that he - she - no longer needs the special treatments. I only have a few more days and them I am totally off my meds, and will be on prenatals only. I haven't had any side effects, cramping, or anything, so that is great. Dr did another ultrasound, and showed me that the brain, spine, ribs face, etc are all forming great. He was very pleased with everything. Hopefully this last ultrasound will last me until the BIG one in August/September when we will *hopefully* find out what we are having. I have my first OB/GYN appt this Thursday, so we will see how that goes.

Well, didn't sleep well last night, so I am going to go relax and read a book in bed, then hopefully go to sleep early.

G'night
♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

Time for the Virtural Girls Night Out (VGNO)

Guys are welcome too!

Our hostess for all the fun is Ann at Ann Again...and Again where we do some great blog hopping, make new friends, and just have some great fun.

Time For Ann's Question: Have you met the love of your life? If so, how did you meet?

Well, Hubby and I met in highschool. He was a Senior and I was a Junior. I was actaully stuck on another guy, who I had been crushing on for years. A guy that was like my adopted brother kept trying to hook me up with Tim, but I thought he was just too goofy. When my crush stood me up for my 17th birthday, I gave in and decided to go out on a date with Tim. I mainly did it to get them off my back....but we have been together ever since. The rest of his senior year, then his 3 years in the army while I finished HS and worked for 2 years. He came home from the Army - we got married - and the rest is history!

Jam's Game wasn't up yet, so I dont have her's to add.

Well, I am off to blog hop. Hopefully I will make it. The Finger Prick I got yesterday @ the dr has bruised my finger tip, so typing is a bit slow, and hard. Not to mention my belly is still a bit upset from lunch.

Have a great night!!

♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

NT Scan update.

Well, today was my nuchal translucency screening. They use an ultrasound to measure the nuchal fold on the back of the babies neck, the nasal bone, blood flow in the placenta, and baby heartbeat. I got to watch the Lil' Bean dance around for about 20-30 minutes. The Dr. came in later to speak to me. Everything looks good. He wasn't able to see the nasal bone, Lil Bean kept hiding its face. But he didn't think that would be a problem. Heartbeat went down to 161 - which is still in the normal region. They are suppose to provide me with 'Official' results next week, once the blood tests come back also.

I also had to get my finger pricked for a blood sample. Well, it wasn't a prick really, it was a slash!! I didn't watch, but it made a sound like a stapler. IT HURT!!!! Even my fingernail hurt! Not to mention that I had to go back to work and type the rest of the day. You don't relize the amont of keys you hit with your right ring finger until it is hurting! I took the bandaid off when I got home, and it is bruised. It hurts BAD!! I can't wait until it heals. Really cuts down on my typing time and accuracy.

I have some of the pics attached...they aren't as clear as the screens were, but you get the idea.

♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

***btw...number at top - not my social...thanks for asking!***

CUTE LITTLE FEET

FACE-LOOKS KINDA SCARY!

LITTLE HAND WITH 5 LITTLE FINGERS!!!!

Busy Weekend!!

I was feeling better this weekend, except for the whole nothing sounding good to eat part. Saturday we got up, and had some breakfast and piddled around the house till noon. Then we went on the hunt for a school track or somewhere for me to walk, and Tim to run. The college track we were going to go to was locked up. So we were going to go to the park, but there was a Relay for Life festival going on. So we drove over to the Fairgrounds - they were having tractor pulls. GAH!! so we went to Wilmington HS as a last resort....it was open! yea! So, we did our stretches, got the ear phones in, and took off. Tim was running - of course - and I just walked at a steady pace. I made sure to keep watch on my heart rate and breath. It was pretty hot on the track, but the breeze was blowing, so that helped. I made sure to take a drink every half lap, or more if needed. I had my ipod under one sports bra strap, phone under the other (didn't you know that is why bra's were invented - to hold stuff :) and just went to town. I did 4 laps around the track, and was done. Luckily Tim had done his crazy number of laps running, and was cooling off as I rounded my final lap. Then we walked back to the car, and headed into Sabina to go swimming at my Aunt's pool. The water was nice and cool, and felt good after being in the sun. I was hungery after a while, so we went to the Frosty. The Frosty is a little shop that sells ice cream, and regular meals too. We had supper, then took some ice cream for the ride home.

Sunday we had church, then picked up our new grill. Ours had finally bit the dust, and the burners wouldn't stay lit.

It was Father's day, so they were on sale. We got home, had some lunch, then started putting the grill together...........

Well....Tim put the grill together:

I sat in the shade of the mountaineer and was in charge of the bolts, screws, and instructions.

By the time we were done, we were both sweaty, and REALLY HOT!! So, off to Aunt Debbie's house we go. My cousin Dawn and her family came over too and we had a mini pool party. We hung out for a while, then went home and cooked on the new grill. It was great.

All -n- All it was a good weekend. Didn't get as much rest as I wanted, so I was super tired today. Now just gotta work, and wait for my next Dr appointments on Thursday.

Have a great week

♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

Under construction

Sorry about the weird mess on the blog. I am trying to convert the templete to 3 columns. Not working so well, but I am trying. If anyone has been able to convert to a blog with side bars on both sides - please share!!

♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

Tagged!

Well, I have been tagged by Michelle at Lollypops and Lizards.

Here's the rules!
1) Go to your photo files…Select the 6th photo folder
2) Select the 6th photo in that folder
3) Post that photo along with the story behind it.
4) Then challenge 5 blog friends to do the same!

My picture is of the framed copy of Sequoya's Graduation Announcement I did this year. For those of you that don't know- Sequoya is my cousin - but could pass as my sister. We joke that she is the daughter my mom never had! Very athletic, and just crazy fun to be with. I on the other hand, was just as athletic as her mom, my mom's sister, Aunt Debbie. Needless to say - we suck!!

So, I am tagging:

Stacey - The Skinny Diaries

Ali - Blessed Country Mom

MzzLily- Blahwg

Alicia - YaYa Stuff

Charmine - My Favorites

♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

VGNO 6/19/09

Time for the Virtural Girls Night Out (VGNO)

Guys are welcome too!

Our hostess for all the fun is Ann at Ann Again...and Again where we do some great blog hopping, make new friends, and just have some great fun.

Time For Ann's Question:

Has anyone ever told you you looked like someone famous? Unfortunitly no - no famous looks here.

Time For Jam's Game:

Well, it was Salsa today - Jam's Sister who is taking care of her blog while she is gone. She had the question:

Which Disney character are you?

I think I would be :

A reliable Sally.

Have a great night!!

♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

Sorry I've been away....

I apologize for the lack of blogging recently. I have spent a lot of time on the couch after work - and all weekend. Barely able to even sit up, let alone type on the computer. The morning sickness kicked into high gear last Thursday. Since then, it has been a battle finding things I can eat. I was eating an egg and a glass of milk for breakfast - until Friday morning. Now I can't even stand the smell of them cooking. So I have been making rounds to different cereals to see if any of them go down without making me sick. It is coco puffs tomorrow. Going to try w/milk - if not any good, then may try dry. We will see how it goes. It is quite weird - I can eat at Longhorn - but can't eat at home. Gah! this is crazy. We are having chicken and Mac-N-Cheese tonight - even though the grill just died - and I'm trying to cook 2 chicken breasts in the toaster oven thing! This is one thing that I have been able to eat. Tim just shakes his head.

On another weird food front....I went to Meijer today after work - and they had the candy I wanted. It was 5 for $6 - and it is the big boxes like you got at the movie theater. Sweetarts, Gobstoppers, and Runts.....SQUEE!! Couldn't make up my mind, so I will keep them at my desk. They will last a while. I will be only eating a few pieces at a time - to balance out all the water I am drinking.

Anyway, supper is ready, so I gotta go.

Hope everyone has a great night

♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

Cardboard Testimonies @ Xenia Naz, June 7, 2009

I just found out that the Cardboard Testimonies done at my church last sunday were posted on YouTube. Thought I would share. The first one is by our Pastor, who I had no idea that they had fought the same infertility battle that we did, only for much, much longer. So, I couldn'd see for about 5 minutes from crying....luckily my M-I-L had a tissue. I gotta get some put in my purse! My F-I-L is in the video. He is the really tall one (duh) with a peach colored polo on.

Enjoy.
J

Doctors, doctors, and doctors

Well, Tim and I both had Dr appointments today. I had an ultrasound with Dr. Bidwell -which started 45 minutes late!. We are 9 weeks and 5 days today. Lil Bean has arms, legs, and likes to 'SHAKE IT!!' The baby would dance around for a bit, then take a break, then start dancing again. It was sooooo cute. We could see the little arms just going to town. Tim said that Lil Bean has a nugget for a head.....if I wasn't getting probed, I would have smacked him. The Dr. just laughed. I explained to Tim that their head is big right now, and that it will even out. All in all, everything looks great!! Next week I go down to one Metformin a day. Following week stop Prometrium, and Metformin will stop week after that. So within 3 weeks, I will be off all meds, and only taking prenatal vitamins. So please pray for Lil Bean and I that we continue to be safe and grow strong. I'm nervous about going off meds, but others have done the same thing with no problems. My next Bidwell appt is in 2 weeks 6/25/09, and I also have a 'special scan' that morning to see if there is downs, or other syndromes/disorders to prepare for. Dr said that some parents decide to terminate if there are negative results - however that is not an option for us. If I am meant to have a special needs child, I will do so. The test will, for us, help us plan for the future - special needs or not. I will also be released to my regular OB/GYN - Dr. Morales in July since Lil Bean is going strong.
Here's some pics:

Lil Bean


Lil Bean with heartbeat - 171 BPM


Lil Bean close up. Can't really tell, but the arms were just going to town!

As for Tim, we went to a Orthopedic Surgeon that specializes in lower arm injuries. It just so happens he is in Cincinnati - close to the Kentucky Border.

{{Recap}} Dad and Tim were riding go carts around our property in 2006. Well, Tim tried to take a short cut - and rolled his. Instead of hunkering down and letting the cage keep him safe, he stuck his arm out. Because he has strong muscles, it kept the arm from being broken. He sprained the elbow and fractured a piece of the bone. The Dr. he saw in Wilmington put him in therapy - which helped to get him back to about 90%, but still had pain, and no full range of motion.
{{Fast Forward to Today}} We went to the specialist, he took a new X-Ray, and saw that Tim's arm has not gotten worse (thank God). He has a few bone spurs, but not anything to worry about right now. Instead of doing surgery, and risking the issue getting worse, Tim got a cortisone shot, and is getting a special geared brace to help stretch his arm back out. We are waiting for insurance (his drags their feet, but have to accept/deny before my insurance works on it) and then will have to pick up the brace and start using it. We don't know how much it will cost, but hopefully my insurance will pay most of it, and the rest will come out of the Flex Spending Account - since I no longer need it for getting pregnant! He will be doing at home therapy with the brace for 30-45 minutes every morning and night. We go back in September for followup, and hopefully he will have better range of motion, and less pain.

Is this a craving?

I was just sitting at work, minding my own, and all of a sudden it hit me....I NEED SOME SORT OF SUGAR CANDY!! I would have killed for a Jolly Rancher, SweeTart, or Warhead. Luckily someone in my area had some Laffy Taffy. It didn't hit the spot, but it was close.

Also, I have been sleeping like the DEAD, but yet I am still TIRED!! I didn't think it would hit me so quick. I've been reading the books, and it does say that you are tired during the 1st and 3rd trimester, but sheesh! I guess it is my body's way of telling me to slow down. I tend to have a problem with that - I inherited it from my mom.

Well, it is 8:30 and I am pooped. Tim is in the shower, and then we are going to watch the Mentalist in bed so if I fall asleep it will be ok.

g'night
♥ J & Lil Bean ♥

VGNO FRIDAY!!

It has been a while....... but time for the Virtural Girls Night Out (VGNO)

Guys are welcome too!

Our hostess for all the fun is Ann at Ann Again...and Again where we do some great blog hopping, make new friends, and just have some great fun.

**I'm sorry this is kinda short. I wanted to stop by and say hi, and then I gotta get to the Scrapbook. My cousin's party is tomorrow, and I am a few pages short to finishing the book**

Have a great night!!

♥ J

Woes of the Pregnant Picky Eater...

I thought I was a picky eater before......sheesh!! When Metformin came into my life (PCOS) My eating choices went down a bit. But man, this kinda sucks (but in a good way-for a good cause). I can only really eat an Egg for breakfast, Subway (chicken bacon ranch with lettuce and ranch), Wendy's Chicken Nuggets, Potatoes, Pretzels, Mac-N-Cheese, Green Beans (mine - from the garden with bacon bits and onion flakes) and Ice Cream -Thank you ice cream for making the upset belly go away!! Sometimes I can do a pork chop or piece of chicken - but I have to be in the mood for it, and not eat too much. I am a country girl, and we butcher our own beef. Well, I fixed a steak a few nights ago, and could only eat half....HALF!!! and it was a small one. But, yet, we go to Longhorn - and I can eat the whole dang thing. I know it is because our beef tastes different (home grown - no hormones- talked to by Gpa Brown, etc) but I didn't think it was THIS DIFFERENT!!! Gah! I hope this passes soon, or else we won't be getting anther half next year. The one good thing is that I haven't had to worship the porcelain god yet....so that is a plus.

It also doesn't help that when I get hungry....I GET HUNGRY!!! and it hits me quick too. I can just be sitting there, doing my work, and all of a sudden I am starving and can't wait to go home and eat! But when I do eat - I fill up really fast. Thank goodness Tim is having my 'eating-for-2' sympathy pains, or else I would have gained 30 lbs by now.

On the weight front, haven't gained anything - actually I have lost 2lbs. It is really nothing to worry about. Dr. said pregnant women with PCOS tend to lose more weight in the beginning of pregnancy because all the extra fat stored from the insulin resistance are starting to be burned up. He told me not to worry, and as long as I was eating enough, drinking enough, and taking my prenatals, I will be fine. Now if I get sickly looking, have weird symptoms and not getting a baby bump, then we will worry. Speaking of the baby bump, I know it is WAY to early, but it seems like some of the fat stored in other areas of my body have been migrating to my belly. It is already starting to stick out a bit more than it did before - to the point where I loosened my belt a notch. I think it is all in my head.

All in all, we are doing great. I can share another secret....just don't tell Tim - he may get embarrassed. You all know, from this post, Tim is not the most emotional guy out there. I had went and bought the bible for pregnancy (what to expect when expecting) and had been reading it before bed. Especially to find out what was going on development wise. Well, Tim would look at it some times, especially the pictures, and ask few questions. Well, when I was picking up my book, I came across another one. It is called "So you are going to be a dad". It is really funny, and actually wrote by a Dad (I kinda wanted to get it for him so I could read it). It is pretty short, only 208 pages - not very technical - so I thought it would be perfect for him and his personality. Tim tends to deal with the hard stuff by cracking jokes.

Well, we went to dinner on Wednesday, and he had been to Barns and Noble and picked up the book he thought I meant him to get (The Expectant Father). Which, is a bit longer, and is closer to the What to Expect book. I am hoping that he will read both of them, and be able to better understand why I am so crazy right now. A good sign is when I came out to the kitchen this morning, the stack of books on the kitchen table (thanks to my friend Lori) was missing the -So you are - book. I thought maybe I had misplaced it, but had a hunch that I didn't. So I looked in the one place Tim keeps his books that he is trying to read.....!!!TMI ALERT!!!......in the cabinet above the toilet. There it was, right on top, and ready to be read. So I am taking that as a good sign!!

Till Next Time!!

♥ J and the Lil' Bean ♥

Wanna Hear a Secret........

Tim and I got a great Mother's Day Gift this year.......

Ok, so please don't be mad at me for holding the secret in for 19 days. It has been very tough. Due to complications of PCOS, Tim and I felt it was better to hold the news back until we saw the heartbeat (which we did today...more on that later).

So, as you know in this blog post you know that I took a test, and got a BFN. Well, bummed as I was, I never started. So I thought that something was wrong, meds didn't take, whatever. So I decided on Friday that I was going to have a crappy Mother's Day anyway, I should just take another test, get a negative, and call my Dr. on Monday.

Well, I woke up at 3:20 am on Mother's day and had to pee (really bad) and new that I couldn't hold it. So I got up, and went to the bathroom to take the test. I was putting the cap back on....and there were already 2 faint lines. So, I freaked, put the test on the back of the toilet, and went to stand in the kitchen for my full 3 minutes. I thought for sure that it was my sleepy eyes playing tricks. I got out to the Kitchen at 3:22am, and stood at the sliding glass door and prayed....HARD. It was a full moon out, and the entire back yard was lit up. At 3:25am, I went back to the bathroom, and looked at the test (like it was going to bite me actually - I'm so weird). I finally picked it up, and could barely see the two lines for my hands started shaking. So after a few breathing excercises, I put the test back down, and ran into the bedroom and jumped on the bed. I woke Tim up...something I should have known wouldn't go well....and told him in a rush 'I just took a test, and it came back positive. He said 'What' - in a sleepy, you are rambling kind of way. I said, a little slower, ' I took a test and it came back positive'. I was shaking by this time. He said, 'Great, lets go back to sleep.' My mouth was hanging open...like WTF!! Why aren't you excited. But, I layed back down and tried to go back to sleep anyway. Tim isn't one to show his emotions....but he did write the positive test on the calender - so I am taking that as excited.

Well, the next two weeks were full of blood tests, medicines, and nasuea. I had 3 blood tests:

5/11/09 HCG 668 Progesterone 12 - Confirmed Pregnancy
5/14/09 HCG 1960 Progesterone 19.5 - 200 MG Prometrium Perscription
5/21/09 HCG 10370 Progesterone 35.2

**Will continue on 1700 mg Metformin for now.

So numbers are going up, food is getting harder to go down....so everything is doing good.

Today we had our first Dr. Appt where we had an ultrasound, and got to see and hear the heartbeat.

So Tim and I got to see our little bean....my cute little nudger. Heartbeat was 150 bpm which is on the low side of average. However, Tim's mom said that his heartbeat was 150 bpm, so it looks good. My estimated due date is Jan 10th 2010 so that makes me about 7 weeks and 6 days along. Continued prayers for Me, Tim, and our little bean to be health, and deliver safely would be appriciated. I haven't cried yet (and Tim isn't Mr. Emotional as established earlier) so I don't think it has really set in. I mean, sure, I have a picture, but it may not hit home till I feel movement.

For all my TTC friends, I wanted to take the time to say that I understand if you are unable to frequent my blog anymore. I know how I felt when others were getting prenant, and I was left on the side line. If you want to visit, and see how we are doing, that is fine, but if it is too hard, I will understand. I will continue to pray for each and every one of you that you will have a little bean of your own.

♥ J

Awards

Well, I have received 2 more awards.

Thank you very much to Michelle for the lovely blog award

and Mzzlily for the most wonderful favorite award.

I am suppose to pass them on, but I don't really have time right now. My back is bothering me a bit, and need to go lay on the floor and stretch out. Sorry!! But I really appriciate it!!

♥ J

Garden is in!!

Well...garden is in. My dad had used a plow to break up the ground last Monday.

My FIL Ray came over on Sunday afternoon with his tractor and worked the ground up nicely. I gotta get me one of these some day. Forget that walking-behind-the-tiller crap we use to do.

So once Ray had it all nice and worked, he helped put the fence posts in with the bucket of the tractor - a lot easier than using the post hole driver. Once those were in, Dad was here, and he pretty much took over the garden. Kinda weird not me and mom, but whatever.

Mom got here later, and was picking out the weeds from the gate to the garden.

Tim was even trying to help. He was the Marker Man. He would put the stakes in the ground so we know where the rows are.

So when all is done, the electric fence is up to keep the deer out, the chicken wire to try and keep the rabbits out (they ate a good chunk of my green beans last time.).

Mom also got the thistles out of the flower beds....she is so good at that!! Hopefully I will grow up to be like her someday :)

I ♥ love ♥ it when I don't have to wear shoes!!

♥ J