Attitude of Gratitude Award

Whooo. It has been an award-winning weekend. Sheesh!

I was presented with this Attitude of Gratitude award from Ali at The Blessed Country Mom

1. Put the logo on your blog or post.
2. Nominate at least 10 blogs that show an Attitude of Gratitude.
3. Link to your nominees within your post.
4. Comment on their blogs to let them know they've received this award.
5. Share the love and link to this post and the person who nominated you for this award. Tell us how you've come to have an Attitude of Gratitude.

Thank you, thank you thank you to all my bloggy friends. My blog follow list gets longer and longer the more I am on here, and I enjoy ever minute of it. I really appricate all the kind words and support I receive when it is needed, and the funny comments when I am CrAzY!! And if anyone reading my blog comes across another blog that you feel I would enjoy, please let me know!! I love meeting new friends!

So now I pass this award on to:
Lily

Patti

Jessica

Michelle (I just started following you, but the posts that I have read are GREAT!)

Charmine

Ok, so I didn't do all 10, but I need to run!

Sorry!

♥ J

My first blog award before my first blog award.....

Ok, so I stated a few days ago that I got my first Blog Award from Lilly. However, Ali had tagged me for an award and I missed the post!!! SORRY SORRY SORRY!!! So now onto my 1st blog award before my first blog award.

I am supposed to tell you about 7 of my favorite things:

1. Tim (Hubby) . I married my high school sweetheart on 09/27/03. As Garth Brooks said " Two of a kind....working on a full house" We are hoping to add to our family anytime now, however PCOS has kept us from that goal, but with meds and Dr. assistance, hopefully we will have that 'full house' soon

2. My family. I love that my family is a bit on the crazy side. I love that my mom, aunts, and uncles are all their own people, and just love to hang out. I love learning from my grandparents, and spending time with them.

3. Our home. I love that we have our 5 acres of land that our (someday) children will be able to run, play, and use their imagination. No worries of strangers, being to loud, or bothering our neighbors.

4. Crafts - Scrapbooking and digital media. Anything that can capture memories, or make someone smile, I love to create it.

5. Photography. I spent a few years in front of the camera as a model, so being behind the camera is great. Just gotta get some things to take pictures of, and I will be all set.

6. Cooking: I am a bit of a picky eater, however I love cooking, baking, and grilling. Good thing my hubby likes to eat!! I love kitchen gadgets, and so does hubby (even though he doesn't cook!) Hopefully some day I won't be a so afraid to eat new things.

7. Reading. Especially during the early summer when I can have the windows open, the birds chirping, nice breeze blowing and lose myself in a good book.

Now I have to choose 7 blog friends to pass this award on to.

1. Lilly

2. Jessica

3. Melissa

4. Frak

5. Stephanie

6. Lucy

7. Patti

Now go pay it forward my Kreativ friends! Thanks again to Ali for the award, even though I missed it!!

♥ J

Blog layout

FINALLY!!!! I have been working on this for a few hours, and finally got it up. the layout on my page was made BY ME!!! Now I need to go and make supper and get away from this computer screen before I go cross eyed.

♥ J

Technical Difficulties

Sorry about that!! Seems that templates from PYZAM.COM don't allow people to leave comments. I have reverted back to a basic one, and just need to sit down and design my own I guess.


Thanks
♥ J

Busy Busy Busy....

So, another productive week. This week, we had Baby Dancing Monday night, Tuesday Morning - and Tuesday night for good measure :) Had a Pampered Chef Party at my cousin Dawn's house on Wednesday (and making my wallet $120 lighter...Thanks Dawn), Thursday my friend Jessica had her baby girl. Madilyn Virgina...such a cutie. Friday we went and saw Tim Hawkins at the Beavercreek Nazarene Church which is the same church Tim and I were married in. However, the santuary looks nothing like it did when we were there. They have painted the stage area black, and have a biq sound and production area with lights and all kinds of stuff. Looks more like an auditorium than a church....really weird. Anyway, he was really funny, and had me in tears half the time. On Saturday, Me, Tim, Pam (Tim's Mom) and Phil (Tim's Step Dad) went to the Reds game. Needless to say, we left after the 7th inning due to crappy game, too much sun, and empty bellies. So we had supper at Pam&Phil's house, then we headed home. Now we are nursing the sunburn, and enjoying the cool basement. Hubby is more burnt than I am, however I forgot to put sunscreen on my chest and neck, so got a bit toasty in those areas. Everything else got a nice base before camping Memorial Day Weekend.

Hope everyone had a great week, and hopefully mine will slow down a bit so I can catch up on sleep!!

Have a great night
♥ J

My first Blog Award

Imagine my suprise when I read my comments today and found out I had been given NENO's AWARD!




Thank you to Lily at http://www.lillianrobinson.com for giving me this award. Even though she is hubby's step-mom, it is still nice to be commended for your work.

The aims of this award:
1)As a dedication for those who love blogging and love to encourage friendships through blogging.
2)To seek the reasons why we all love blogging.
3)Put the award in one post as soon as you receive it.
4)Don't forget to mention the person who gives you the award.
5)Answer the award's question by writing the reason why you love blogging.
6)Tag and distribute the award to as many people as you like.
7)Don't forget to notify the award receivers and put their links in your post

Anyway, I started this blog originally to share my story with family, friends, and learn to deal with the emotional roller coaster that goes with having PCOS and Fertility Issues. I love to blog, I just seem to think that I don't lead an interesting enough life to really blog about. I am learning that everything you do is worth something, or you wouldn't be doing it in the first place, and to find reasons in everyday things.

So on to the people I will be passing this on to:

First to Ali at http://theblessedcountrymom.blogspot.com. She is a girl that I went to school with, and I have learned so much from. She is a wonderful mother, wife, and women. I hope one of these days I will be able to use some of the tips and tricks she has shared in her blog.

Next to Alicia at http://yayastuff.blogspot.com/. This girl has been there, and done that. I love reading her blogs, and learning from her every day.

To Patti at http://builtclosetotheground.blogspot.com/ I give this award to you because you are a great woman, mother, and Grandmother. When things get tough, you keep on trucking!! Not to mention you are the only woman I would let my husband call 'Suga Momma'!!

Anyone of the blogs that I currently follow, but did not do this award to, I'm sorry. It is not that I don't enjoy your blogs, it is just that I am only starting to get to know you. Hopefully I will pass on another award in the future to you.

~*Blessings*~
♥ J

Hey!! How U Doin'

Well, we had a fun weekend...kinda. Friday night we had a Spaghetti dinner for Special Olympics hosted by the Brothers at the Sabina Lodge. We typically go to their Breakfast every first Saturday of the month. They LOVE Tim! They even have peanut butter waiting for him to smother on his pancakes {{Ugh -Gross}}. So we went to have dinner, and they made sure to make another plate 'To Go' cause 'He is a growing boy and needs his food'....gah.. they sound like his Grandma! Oh well. Kept me from making supper on Sunday.

After Lodge, I tried to 'Roll' the yard with Grandpa Browns roller (that is older than me and Tim put together I think!) and we couldn't keep it running. I would finally get it going, back out of the garage, and it would die in the driveway. So Hubby, being the strong man he is...PUSHES the roller up the incline - to the flat part of the driveway. We finally get it started again, I do one swipe with the roller, and it dies......I give up. Hubby comes and pushes it from the side yard to the horse trailer where we load it up. We call Grandpa and tell him he can come hook up to the horse trailer and take it back home...I'm not messing with it any more.



So the rest of the night is spent on the couch with hubbs and doing the VGNO!!

Saturday, Hubby had to get up and go to work (8 hrs OT baby!!) So I got up, and mowed the yard (I ♥ my mower) That picture is from last year...and not very flattering!! I have those protective ear things on, but they are cool!! You can hook them up to your MP3 player, and rock out!! Makes cutting the grass more fun. Just gotta remember not to sing or dance too much, people look at you like you are crazy!! Well, I am very particular how I cut my grass. I mow it a different direction every time. This time happen to be left to right, which is the hardest on me.

After I got done mowing around noon, I took a shower, and got ready to go to a Birthday Party for my 4 year old cousin. That was fun, had some cake and ice cream. Didn't over do it {{pats own back}} and drank plenty of water to counter balance the sugar. By the time I got home, Hubby was home, and he got in the shower. He was pooped from work, so we spent the rest of the night on the couch - where I finished my book. By then, my back was in full revolt mode!! Needless to say, I didn't sleep much that night.

Sunday morning, we got up, went to church, and then spent the ENTIRE day on the couch. I could barely move. Tim made fun of me cause I read over half of another book in the few hours prior to my parents getting here. {{Re-Reading Interview with the Vampire - Ann Rice. Going to try and make it through the entire series.}} Tim was on laundry detail, and I helped as much as I could.

Mom and Dad came over about 6 for supper. Mom had to give me my shot, so we did that, and then I finished supper. Roast, dumplings, and mashed potatoes!! My speciality. After that, we had movie time! My parents only own 6 DVDs (4 of which I have bought them) so they like to come and watch movies at our house. So we watched I Now Pronounce you Chuck and Larry, and laughed!!

After that, it was 10pm, so Mom and Dad left, and we went to bed. I know what you are thinking...10 pm!! what are you .....80? Well, hubby gets up a 4:30am, and I get up at 6 - so I need my beauty sleep!! I am so tired all the time, and once you subtract the few hours worth of time it takes me to A.) fall asleep and B.) cool down from having hot flashes in the middle of the night, I don't get a lot of sleep.

So all ~n~ all it was a good weekend.

Hope everyone enjoyed theirs!

~*J*~

VGNO!!! I'm Cookie Anitacocktail

It's that time again. Happy Friday to all...and Happy VGNO to all my online friends!! Virtural Girls Night out is hosted by Ann at Ann Again...and again where you have a night of blog-hopping, and get to meet all kinds of new friends. So if youa re interested in joining the fund, head over to Ann's page to get started.

Time for our party game:

Librarian Alter Ego

If your first name begins with letters A - E, your first name would be: Bubbles. Follow the chart to see what your Librarian's Alter Ego name is.
First Name=
A - E: Bubbles
F - J: Cookie
K - O: Pepper
P - T: Honey
U - Z: Pebbles

Last Name=
A - E: Featherbottom
F - J: Ivanabee-Queen
K - O: Rhea-Listik
P - T: Anitacocktail
U - Z: Mona-Lott

I am Cookie Anitacocktail!!!
What is YOUR librarian alter-ego?


Hope everyone has a great night!!!
♥ J

Dr. Appt Update

OK, so I had a CD13 ultrasound today. Lining looks good, and turns out I have follies on the LEFT side. This is the slacker side....hasn't produced anything in the past cycles. Anyway, so I am getting my shot this Sunday night, and then its baby dance time!! Hopefully this will be the cycle that something happens. I know that my hotflashes are really bad this time, so hopefully that means something good!!

Also, my friend Jessica from work...she is REALLY PREGGERS!! She had a Dr. Appt today, and is dilated to 4, so I think she is going to go this weekend!! So prayers for her to have a safe delivery.

Well, it is Thursday, so we got Smallville and CSI, so I am off to watch TV with hubbs.

~*Later*~
♥ J

Busy Weekend!!

Ok, so normally I post a vlog on Saturday, but it doesn't look like I am going to have time. Hubby and I got in later last night....had dinner and a movie. Hubs wanted to see Fast and Furious....and I did too, so we went. the only downside to watching the movie....hubby bored me with 'car talk' the whole way home. I don't know what a 'turbo blah blah blah' or any of that crap is. I just know that the car looked nice.....sheesh! Oh well. It was a fun night, and then we came home and I tried to do my VGNO...until my DSL Modem started freaking out. So if I didn't make it to your page last night, I'm sorry!!! Hopefully I will have better luck next time.

As for today, Hubby is going to the grocery...I hate going...but he doesn't mind. And I am STILL working on Miss Sequoya's scrapbook. The stack of pictures are getting smaller, but my creative wheels are kinda rusty, so it is taking me longer than normal to get the pages done.

My parents are going to meet us here @ 5pm, and then we are heading into Xenia to eat some pizza. After getting a bite to eat, we are heading to the Dayton Dragon's Game!! Whoot!! Tim got 4 tickets for like $40 from his union meeting. Last time my parents went to the game, it was raining and nasty out. so it should be fun. I am going to make sure I get a pretzel this time. It was too hot last time we were there, and I missed out.

We have the regular busy Easter Day. Church service at 9am, Lunch with Grandma and Grandpa Brown, Mom & Dad, Uncle Phil and his fam. Then, once I am stuffed.....we gotta go to Grandma & Grandpa Cramer's, and all that family (like around 40 or so kids, parents, and in betweens like us) will continue to stuff ourselves silly, and then watch the kiddies have a Easter egg hunt, and hopefully see the Easter Bunny. I will try to post pictures later this week.

Hope everyone has a good Easter Weekend. Try not to eat too much candy!!

~*Jessica*~

VGNO!!!

It's FRIDAY!!! Time for Virtual Girls Night Out hosted by Ann at Ann again....and again.


As for Ann's Question.....What Easter candy do you just have to have?....I am not a big candy person.....but I love the Easter Shaped Sweetart candies....bunnies, and eggs......love it.

I gotta make this short cause hubby and I are going to dinner and a movie, so I will be doing my blog hopping later tonight. Anyway, head over to Ann's page and start the fun.

C-y'all Later
~*Jessica*~

WTF! Just a thought!

Ok, so after driving all over Fairborn to get my RX filled for my shot, I finally got it. Kroger didn't have it in stock, and it was on 'backorder'?!?! ok, whatever. So they found it at the Walgreens up the street. However it is $11 more expensive at Walgreens. So I just paid $58 to hopefully ovulate this month.

Total I have spent:
7 days of 150 mg Clomid - $41
30 days of 1700 mg Metformin - $4 (ROCKS!!)
Novule (1 ml) $58.
Total $103!!
If it works....will mean years of priceless memories.....

Now, explain to me why a 65 year old man could get meds partialy paid for to get a boner, but I can't get any help with making a baby. You would think the making baby would make them more money than giving an old dude a woody!! A baby would mean more money paid to the company, more premiums, etc. Giving an Grandpa a Boner just increases his chances of dying from a heart attack, which would mean no money, premiums etc.

ok, I'm off to eat something now that this is out of my brain!

~*PEACE*~
♥ J

Green Light means GO!!

OK, so had my first ultrasound of the cycle today. Dr. said we can consider this day 3. Something about being late in the day when I started, and stuff like that. Anyway....after waiting 4-EVER to get a call saying when I could come in, and jacking up my work schedule, I was finally sitting on the table - sayin my prayers. The Dr comes in, talks to me about the previous cycle and any issues....then I 'assume the position'. She checks my lining - nice and thin like it should, checks the R ovary first (The one that had follicles ready last cycle, and where the Cyst hung out 2 cycles ago) ::Started holding my breath:: - same normal cysts (ie small). Go to the Left Side - the bad ovary - same normal cysts, nothing to worry about. ::Start breathing again::

So, I get the ALL CLEAR from the Dr, schedule my follow up for next Thursday to see if we got jumpers at the door. I call my pharmacy to get my refill - they were able to get me the clomid - but I gotta go back tomorrow to pick up my shot - didn't have it in stock.

So, thank you for all the prayers to begin the cycle, now we just hope things work out, and pray that something 'sticks'. Hopefully there will be 2 pink lines by this time next month! Trying not to get my hopes up to high, but a little wishful thinking doesn't hurt.

Until next time....

~*J*~

4 4 09 vlog Part 3

This part is about TTC (trying to conceive), VGNO (Virtural Girls Night Out) and my many Thanks!!

Ali's blog: http://theblessedcountrymom.blogspot.com

4-4-09 vlog Part 2

Part 2 - About Vlogbrothers and John Green's books

Vlogbrothers: http://www.youtube.com/user/vlogbrothers

4-4-09 vlog Part 1

So I did a vlog today, and as usual, I rambled. So it is in 3 parts. This one is mainly about my Twilight obsession and a gift from my friend Brandi.

My very first VGNO!!

Ok, so ali invited me to the Virtual Girls Night Out, and I have no idea what I am doing, but I am trying to make the best of it! I am trying to get a hang on this blog thing, and jumping in with both feet!!!

Any tips and tricks from other VGNO's would be helpful....pretty please!!

If you wanna try it, head over to ann's page to start

♥
J

Negative......story of my life.

**Kinda went on a Rant....Sorry So Long**

Ok, so for those of you that have been following my cycles, you know that 4/1/09 as suppose to be my day to test. Well, woke up on the 1st, and didn't have to go to the potty - for the first time in I don't know how many years. Kinda weird. Anyway, so I didn't take a test. Anyway, Hubby and I talked about it last night, and he didn't want to know this morning, he wanted me to wait to tell him after work. He didn't want to go to work either disappointed, or too happy, to keep his mind on what he was doing that day. (dont want another shot to the nose with a pole - long story).

So, I hung out in bed for a few extra minutes, and went to take it after kissing him goodbye. In times past when I took a test, I couldn't help myself, and would watch the test change. I put the cap on, placed it on the back of the toilet, and got in the shower. When I got out and toweled off, then I looked. NEGATIVE....GAH!!! Honestly, just give us a break already!!

This negative was a bit harder to take. My cycle had been much different than the other ones. My emotions were more 'out-of-control' and I just FELT different, especially the past week (tenderness, exhausted all the time, etc). I tried not to think anything about it, but when it has been this long, you can't help but to have your mind wonder over to that side of the stick. I am a bit past the crying when I see only one line on the dang thing (I kinda plan on it only having 1), but it isn't until later when I relize that in my mind, I was really counting on that second line - even though I told myself not to. Mainly I just get angry. Angry at myself - for being 'broken', pissed at the medicine for not doing its job, and yes - unfortunitly - I get mad at God for putting us through this. Tim and I are good people, we help anyone we can, we live our lives the best way we know how, and we still have this heart ache every month. Once I get past that, then I try to remind myself that eventhough I can't see why we have to go through this, it will make it that much sweeter when I do get those 2 lines.

Then it never fails.... I get to work, and hear about Ms. Yahoo's 17 year old daughter's pregnancy with her 2nd (different daddys-she''s not even graduated yet), Mr. Crabby saying his new baby is keeping them up all night, and he will love it when the kid can sleep all night cause it is driving him nuts (at least you have a cute little baby to keep you up at night). Mr. Whats-his face saying - 'Diapers are expensive, I'm not going to get to go on my trip this year because of it (I want to pay for those expensive diapers - but cant)..... Ms. whatever's son just got his girlfriend of like 3 mths knocked up, so they are going to get an apartment together.

Honestly, do Tim and I need to rack up our credit cards and be in debt up to our eyeballs? Do I need to start back up smoking and drinking again? Do we need to not be responsible, and right in the time that we are not able to care for the baby, that is when we get one? That is kinda what I am seeing out there in the world. I'm not going to, cause we are smarter than that, but that is what it seems like everyone else is doing.

I know people are just trying to comfort, but if one more person tells me that when I quit thinking about it, then it will happen - 'that's what happen to So-&-So' - I am seriously going off the deep end. So-&-So doesn't have PCOS. S&S does not have to count her days to make sure she takes meds on the right day. S&S doesn't need to call their Mom to give her a shot in the arse. S&S doesn't have to get probed at times that are really uncomfortable, embarrasing, and gross. S&S doesn't have 2 ovaries that look like 'Swiss Cheese' on an ultrasound (That is how the DR explained it). If there was nothing wrong with me, then that would be valid. But there is something medically wrong, and I can't just 'not think about it'.

Ok, I think that is enough ranting for now. I am not good with letting my true feelings come to the surface, but I am working on that. A bunch of ladies that are dealing with PCOS blog to vent the feelings they have, and sometimes it helps. So I am trying. I hope people don't think I am whining, but I am just going to try to be real.

Well, Tim and I went to Longhorn for supper, and are watching our Smallville and CSI tonight, so I better get off here so I can watch it.

♥ J