Woes of the Pregnant Picky Eater...

I thought I was a picky eater before......sheesh!! When Metformin came into my life (PCOS) My eating choices went down a bit. But man, this kinda sucks (but in a good way-for a good cause). I can only really eat an Egg for breakfast, Subway (chicken bacon ranch with lettuce and ranch), Wendy's Chicken Nuggets, Potatoes, Pretzels, Mac-N-Cheese, Green Beans (mine - from the garden with bacon bits and onion flakes) and Ice Cream -Thank you ice cream for making the upset belly go away!! Sometimes I can do a pork chop or piece of chicken - but I have to be in the mood for it, and not eat too much. I am a country girl, and we butcher our own beef. Well, I fixed a steak a few nights ago, and could only eat half....HALF!!! and it was a small one. But, yet, we go to Longhorn - and I can eat the whole dang thing. I know it is because our beef tastes different (home grown - no hormones- talked to by Gpa Brown, etc) but I didn't think it was THIS DIFFERENT!!! Gah! I hope this passes soon, or else we won't be getting anther half next year. The one good thing is that I haven't had to worship the porcelain god yet....so that is a plus.

It also doesn't help that when I get hungry....I GET HUNGRY!!! and it hits me quick too. I can just be sitting there, doing my work, and all of a sudden I am starving and can't wait to go home and eat! But when I do eat - I fill up really fast. Thank goodness Tim is having my 'eating-for-2' sympathy pains, or else I would have gained 30 lbs by now.

On the weight front, haven't gained anything - actually I have lost 2lbs. It is really nothing to worry about. Dr. said pregnant women with PCOS tend to lose more weight in the beginning of pregnancy because all the extra fat stored from the insulin resistance are starting to be burned up. He told me not to worry, and as long as I was eating enough, drinking enough, and taking my prenatals, I will be fine. Now if I get sickly looking, have weird symptoms and not getting a baby bump, then we will worry. Speaking of the baby bump, I know it is WAY to early, but it seems like some of the fat stored in other areas of my body have been migrating to my belly. It is already starting to stick out a bit more than it did before - to the point where I loosened my belt a notch. I think it is all in my head.

All in all, we are doing great. I can share another secret....just don't tell Tim - he may get embarrassed. You all know, from this post, Tim is not the most emotional guy out there. I had went and bought the bible for pregnancy (what to expect when expecting) and had been reading it before bed. Especially to find out what was going on development wise. Well, Tim would look at it some times, especially the pictures, and ask few questions. Well, when I was picking up my book, I came across another one. It is called "So you are going to be a dad". It is really funny, and actually wrote by a Dad (I kinda wanted to get it for him so I could read it). It is pretty short, only 208 pages - not very technical - so I thought it would be perfect for him and his personality. Tim tends to deal with the hard stuff by cracking jokes.

Well, we went to dinner on Wednesday, and he had been to Barns and Noble and picked up the book he thought I meant him to get (The Expectant Father). Which, is a bit longer, and is closer to the What to Expect book. I am hoping that he will read both of them, and be able to better understand why I am so crazy right now. A good sign is when I came out to the kitchen this morning, the stack of books on the kitchen table (thanks to my friend Lori) was missing the -So you are - book. I thought maybe I had misplaced it, but had a hunch that I didn't. So I looked in the one place Tim keeps his books that he is trying to read.....!!!TMI ALERT!!!......in the cabinet above the toilet. There it was, right on top, and ready to be read. So I am taking that as a good sign!!

Till Next Time!!

♥ J and the Lil' Bean ♥

Wanna Hear a Secret........

Tim and I got a great Mother's Day Gift this year.......

Ok, so please don't be mad at me for holding the secret in for 19 days. It has been very tough. Due to complications of PCOS, Tim and I felt it was better to hold the news back until we saw the heartbeat (which we did today...more on that later).

So, as you know in this blog post you know that I took a test, and got a BFN. Well, bummed as I was, I never started. So I thought that something was wrong, meds didn't take, whatever. So I decided on Friday that I was going to have a crappy Mother's Day anyway, I should just take another test, get a negative, and call my Dr. on Monday.

Well, I woke up at 3:20 am on Mother's day and had to pee (really bad) and new that I couldn't hold it. So I got up, and went to the bathroom to take the test. I was putting the cap back on....and there were already 2 faint lines. So, I freaked, put the test on the back of the toilet, and went to stand in the kitchen for my full 3 minutes. I thought for sure that it was my sleepy eyes playing tricks. I got out to the Kitchen at 3:22am, and stood at the sliding glass door and prayed....HARD. It was a full moon out, and the entire back yard was lit up. At 3:25am, I went back to the bathroom, and looked at the test (like it was going to bite me actually - I'm so weird). I finally picked it up, and could barely see the two lines for my hands started shaking. So after a few breathing excercises, I put the test back down, and ran into the bedroom and jumped on the bed. I woke Tim up...something I should have known wouldn't go well....and told him in a rush 'I just took a test, and it came back positive. He said 'What' - in a sleepy, you are rambling kind of way. I said, a little slower, ' I took a test and it came back positive'. I was shaking by this time. He said, 'Great, lets go back to sleep.' My mouth was hanging open...like WTF!! Why aren't you excited. But, I layed back down and tried to go back to sleep anyway. Tim isn't one to show his emotions....but he did write the positive test on the calender - so I am taking that as excited.

Well, the next two weeks were full of blood tests, medicines, and nasuea. I had 3 blood tests:

5/11/09 HCG 668 Progesterone 12 - Confirmed Pregnancy
5/14/09 HCG 1960 Progesterone 19.5 - 200 MG Prometrium Perscription
5/21/09 HCG 10370 Progesterone 35.2

**Will continue on 1700 mg Metformin for now.

So numbers are going up, food is getting harder to go down....so everything is doing good.

Today we had our first Dr. Appt where we had an ultrasound, and got to see and hear the heartbeat.

So Tim and I got to see our little bean....my cute little nudger. Heartbeat was 150 bpm which is on the low side of average. However, Tim's mom said that his heartbeat was 150 bpm, so it looks good. My estimated due date is Jan 10th 2010 so that makes me about 7 weeks and 6 days along. Continued prayers for Me, Tim, and our little bean to be health, and deliver safely would be appriciated. I haven't cried yet (and Tim isn't Mr. Emotional as established earlier) so I don't think it has really set in. I mean, sure, I have a picture, but it may not hit home till I feel movement.

For all my TTC friends, I wanted to take the time to say that I understand if you are unable to frequent my blog anymore. I know how I felt when others were getting prenant, and I was left on the side line. If you want to visit, and see how we are doing, that is fine, but if it is too hard, I will understand. I will continue to pray for each and every one of you that you will have a little bean of your own.

♥ J

Awards

Well, I have received 2 more awards.

Thank you very much to Michelle for the lovely blog award

and Mzzlily for the most wonderful favorite award.

I am suppose to pass them on, but I don't really have time right now. My back is bothering me a bit, and need to go lay on the floor and stretch out. Sorry!! But I really appriciate it!!

♥ J